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You Are Bert

Extremely serious and a little eccentric, people find you loveable - even if you don't love them! You are usually feeling: Logical - you rarely let your emotions rule you You are famous for: Being smart, a total neat freak, and maybe just a little evil How you life your life: With passion, even if your odd passions (like bottle caps and pigeons) are baffling to others

Sit-ups are out for the next while.

While doing roundhouse kicks this past week at KB class, The foot that was still attached to the ground slipped (damn shin pads) and I went down hard on my tailbone. Maybe cracked it, maybe not. Short story: I hurt my bum. I was fine during last night's class until I attempted to go from an on-my-back position to standing without using my hands. That entailed* rolling onto my tailbone. I didn't realize what I was doing until I felt the blast of pain and rolled over onto my side.

The rest of the night comprised mostly of getting kicked in the sternum by Brent, who managed to drill me quite well a few times with his heel. I also got to be Cassie's demonstration dummy; she seems to get some form of joy by hitting me. :>)

Jackie will be starting at the bakery this Sunday as my new assistant and cookie baker. She also takes KB class, so we'll be able to spar while baking. I'll also be quite happy to have a reduced workload.

Time to wash down some Advil with beer.



* no pun intended

A registrar I used to register domains with recently collapsed amidst allegations of fraud, misappropriation of funds, liposuction, and other unsavoury things (see www.registerflies.com ). One of the results was that I was unable to renew the domain for my revenue-generating website, classicreader.com, and lost control of the domain for about 4 days. I've managed to transfer it to another registrar and have regained control, albeit after losing income during that time.

To compound the problem, Google indexed the site during this time and now has in its cache the placeholder page of my former registrar. This means that every page that Google has indexed is identical. I can expect a sharp drop in traffic due to this and will probably have to wait a couple of months before things get back to normal.

This further convinces me to keep my day job, even though it usually pays less.

This coming year is going to be one of change, taking the experiences I've had this year and taking lessons from them. One of the big lessons I learned is from my experience with Marcella. I don't like the person I was, being accommodating to the extent that my needs weren't met (nor did I express them clearly) not establishing boundaries and enforcing them, and becoming angry and resentful because of it. Mind you, the responsibility doesn't lie entirely on my shoulders; it also took the active participation of Marcella to get to that dynamic. One thing does entirely rests upon me, though, and that thing is the means to change the way I interact with others and, just as importantly, with myself.

I've come a long way in the past 5 or so years, going from a sense of self-loathing and a feeling of worthlessness to forgiveness and acceptance, rebuilding my sense of self and trying to make up for all the time I've lost. One aspect of myself that I'm coming to accept is that I'm an introverted person, always have been, and that I need to work with it rather than fight against it. That's been the focus of one of my great struggles: trying not to be so inward-focused. The fact that I hadn't had much success caused me a great amount of frustration. Now that I've learned that it's an innate, immutable part of me I can embrace it rather than try to change it. I'm not likely to ever be the loud, boisterous guy at the centre of the action. That may change in time but it has to be a natural progression and not one that is forced.

I just attended my first kickboxing class last night (after a 12-hour baking day) and I must say I'm feeling it today. Things were stretched that I didn't even know I had. It's the first time I've been sore everywhere. So sore, in fact, that I decided to go on a 10km trail-run today in the pouring rain. When will I learn.

Oh well, the pain will go away just in time to do it again later this week.